Venus In The Fifth

I could never be famous. I could never be a public figure. I’m too quick to tell someone to mind their damn business, especially when it comes to my personal life. I’ve never been the kind of person who felt like because I buy someone’s music/art, that somehow I own them. 

I was on Yahoo and they had an article asking what your worst date was. I’ve never dated. Pisces don’t date. We meet someone and then we’re together. I met my ex husband in a book store. We just looked at each other and that was all she wrote. After three months of dating we got married (Lasted 8 years) and had our son. It’s been like that in all of my relationships. lol

I doubt very seriously if I’ll get married again. I mean, it seems pretty unnecessary at this stage in my life, but if I do meet the right man we’ll just have a small gathering, shake a tambourine six times and then walk in a circle two times: Voila’ we’re together! This popped into my head because me and my ex-husband had problems finding someone to marry us when he was in Augusta, GA. I wasn’t raised with religion and neither was my ex husband. He’s was raised in Holland and was stationed in Georgia at the time when we got married. We just wanted to get married. Nothing fancy. Everyone wanted us to get Christian/Couples counseling before we got married. The New Yorker in me came out, and I was like, “Y’all need to mind your business.” I was just amazed how Religion had it’s hand in almost everything. 

I felt like such a snail today. I hate not doing things. I like to be a busy bee. I have a lot of nervous energy, so I’m always floating around. I need constant stimulation as well. Being bored is a nightmare for me.

I was thinking of starting my own phone sex business. I would basically have people working for me. It would be a cool way for me to earn some extra money. I took temporary leave from my position as a CNA at a Hospice in Manhattan to focus on doing charts for clients. I really like working from home. I doubt if I’d get on the phones again. It’s been ages since I did phone sex work. I know I’m rusty. lol

If I do start my own business, I’ll be sure to hire some of my followers. <3 The game is really high-tech now. I was a phone sex operator back in 2003/2004. I answered an ad in the Village Voice’s adult classifieds, applied and was hired that day. Now most of the job positions are online. 

Its been a rough two weeks. I’ve been having strange dreams, anxiety and feeling emotionally overwhelmed. I have no sense of time, or what day it is most of the time. I could barely write that Venus chart. My mind was spinning and swirling the entire time. I had a dream I took a walk at around 2 in the morning. The Sun was out, shining so brightly it was melting things. I remember being afraid it was going to burn me, or even melt me, but it didn’t. 

During the Sagittarius Lunar Eclipse on June 4th I awoke with hives all over my arms and hands. I wanted to write a post about the Eclipse, but I couldn’t because I was itching so damn much! The Eclipse hit my Chiron (Wounds/Healing) in the 6th house (Health) so I’m not surprised I got sick. I was expecting a headache (My Chiron is in Aries, which rules the head) Not damn hives! On June 19th there will be another dose of Gemini energy with a New Moon in Gemini @ 28 degrees opposite the Galactic Center. The Galactic center is very much like the Sun’s Sun. I have a feeling  we’ll all be getting a little cosmic help and experiencing more awakenings than usual….

Sometimes we need to focus on our own healing and self preservation before we can help others. 

I had a strange dream that seemed so real it actually caused me to get out of my bed and walk around my place. This week has been especially odd for some reason. I have no idea what day it is anymore. It doesn’t feel like Monday, Tuesday or Wednesday. It doesn’t feel like any day of the week. It’s as though time has stopped.  Like the Universe has pushed a gigantic ‘Pause’ button.

I need to work on being more patient. I don’t like people who complicate things. Its difficult for me to be around people who pick at, and dissect everything. I rely more on feelings and my intuition. I’m extremely heart-centered as well. I work with a lot of analytical/critical people. I just shield myself and keep it moving.

I have to go through my followers to see who to follow back. I’m always looking for new and interesting people to follow (Sometimes life gets in the way). I’m also very sensitive to energy. I’m cautious about who I follow. I refuse to have any kind of negativity on my dashboard.